What does it actually mean for me? Its a magical thing, a lot of people are talking to me again that never spoke to me before. Then again they are drunk out of their minds. Its nice all the same though, maybe from now on I can pick up on my life again. I really feel apprehensive about what I sent Anna now, wish I could take it back and in time I probably will. Not when I'm so unsure as I am right now.
My medical condition is persistent and I'm scared I won't be diagnosed before school starts. I'm having my blood taken for analysis on Tuesday. Then school starts a week later. I'm not ready at all actually. I'll try and focus but I don't know if I'll get through it this time. I'm still reforming myself. I have a lot of free time and am trying to actually be productive at all times instead of wasting time. If I can do stuff that I don't want to for more than like a day I'll be happy.
Meh, I know that she doesn't read this blog at all; doesn't care. To be honest I think it might of been another cry for attention but now I'm thinking of it as a test of will. I'm going to see her again maybe by like the end of the month, depends on whenever I begin my treatment. I'm really dramatic but hopefully that will go away too. I really need someone to talk to, why did I throw away my best friend again?
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