I guess I'm really just writing out of habit more than anything at this point. Or maybe its because I've made some realizations after careful introspection upon myself. I've been thinking about people and myself and might possibly have even figured out what might be wrong with me. This entire time I thought I was depressed, this isn't the case. I'm going to see a doctor soon, hopefully they can diagnose me with the real deal and help me out. I feel like I've been struggling through life, through relationships and through everything else. I don't want to jinx it or anything so I'm not going to say what I think I have, not until I can understand it completely.


Christmas was bleak for me, while everyone else was probably off spending time with family or their boyfriends/girlfriends, I was laming it out here. Same place I'm writing this. I definitely don't enjoy it and this year has been the worst year by far. Maybe its my fault for being so brash all the time, shoving away my only friend when I was going through a tough time. But what can I really do? I made a dumb decision, told myself to stick with it and now I can't again. I've already failed on the inside, so I don't even know what to do any more. Its not high school any more and I can't just talk my way out of everything, furthermore everyone thinks I'm annoying now. Its only been two days and already I want to retract my stupid present and just talk about everything.

That's all I ever want to do though, talk.
"What do you even want to do all day? Talk!?" I thought about it, that's true. All I ever want to do is just talk, I never once thought that talking may not be fun for anyone else but me. I need attention like a little child does, when I cut her out of my life I began to watch myself, see what I would do. Sure enough I started talking to everyone around me a lot more, now everyone is annoyed at me; hell my own brother has taken more of a liking to Anna's boyfriend than me. My damn luck. It would take nothing short of a miracle to bump me to the right place now.

There's gotta be something superhuman about her, everyone I know can't handle me in large doses. Somehow she was able to before, not anymore it looks like; but used to. I don't want to be like that any more though, I want to be normal. You know?

Here I am. At the end of the road, the end of the semester. I think its pretty odd that the school semester only lasted for I think it was 10 weeks? Not a good look for me anyway, all that time spent skipping classes has really come to bite me in the ass. I started with 5 classes and I am now looking at failing all but 1. I look back at it and I can honestly say that I fucked up badly, and what do I have to show for it now? I seemed to have everything when I started the semester, all of the facets of my life were covered and everything seemed perfect. But now, I have almost nothing to show for it; reality hits pretty hard.


So I obviously failed in the school department, and as for my job we all know that I got fired. Financials aren't that bad, at least I get food money while I go to school. Money that I use on other stupid stuff instead, its like I'm an addict but I'm not. As always, girls is the only part of my life that even moves at all; but its still not as successful as I would like it to be. I've reverted back to sleeping with Teagan, I don't even know why I'm doing it as its pretty obvious I'm just leading her on. I also ran into the crazy Teagan couple of days ago, damn that kind of sucked; it was extremely awkward. I'm a big baby and blame her for everything that has happened to me in the last couple of months, so obviously I'm not her biggest fan. We laughed and such, but nothing came out of it and I blew her off on her birthday. I'll count that as a win in my book.

I get a second chance next semester, I think I'll only start with 4 classes this time and try to focus on all of those instead of doing what I did this time around. I'm starting to think that my problems I have everyday aren't real problems, no one seems to care this time around. Everyone just thinks that I have it great, take my ex Teagan for example. Last night I told Anna about it and my worries about me leading her on and such. Her advice to me was "She's fucking hot! Just bang her, don't worry about any of that emotional crap." Is it really that easy? Am I literally crying over nothing? I don't think so but I don't know anymore, I wish I had all my old friends again like it was high school.

I'm going to be a shut-in this winter, other than going out to see Teagan I don't think I'll be doing anything but staying at home. It feels stupid to say, but I think my life has burnt out for the meantime and maybe I just need to recharge.

This might actually be the first time I've written a second part to a post. But what can I say, my life is pretty jam packed. It looks like I might finally be bringing all my past drama to a close. The past couple of years have been an intense series of events that not even I could have imagined. A lot of it has been due to the exact same things. Such as my defining character traits such as laziness and an outgoing attitude or the people I know, primarily Anna and Kaitlyn.

I'm thinking maybe I've fixed it though and maybe I found out exactly what I need to do. I've been looking for someone to talk to, someone to help me with my problems and walk me through it. I think I've just realized that for some reason I constantly keep acting like a child. Always have acted like this, I never want to do any work, the only thing I want in the world is a real friend, and its always play before everything else. I could never say I was a hard worker and now I know I never even worked. I can never keep a job because after the job gets boring for me I don't want to go anymore. And at school... what am I even doing?

I didn't go for weeks and now I realize I'm in a heap of trouble and no amount of banter is going to get me out of this mess. I can't believe that it took this long for me to realize what I'm doing wrong. I'm not here to make friends, not here to meet girls, I'm here to learn and get somewhere someday. Right now I'm trying to figure out how to grow up and do some honest work for once, tough it out and actually do something I don't want to do. It's time for me to jump into the real world and stop blaming everything else for my shortcomings. I may be smart and sly but in no way is that good enough to float on by through the rest of my life.

I've closed the book on Anna, all the ties between us are broken and the only things left of her is the things she left behind, a memento of sorts. We're friends now, but its obvious we're not the best of friends; she's too scared of who I am and closes herself off to me. Worried that I might take to her again, I doubt it. Kaitlyn and I, we talk again now that she signed up with provider that gives her free international texting. Since she's moved to Cali I've seen her once, and its not the same talking over text message. I'm picky, and I think that being friends means actually hanging out a lot.

So from here on out its all for real, all serious. I hope I can still relax and otherwise flex my social muscles and entertain my humor, but who knows what the world has in store for me now!

I was trying to think of a ton of things I could say, I even thought of writing up every event that's happened from my last post until now. My life, its just too interesting; some might even think of it as a movie or a show. Well if it is, then this blog is going to be its transcript. I've reverted the blog back to a simple format (or at least I will soon) because its easier for me to just write and go. I asked myself why I blog actually, and to be honest its for the handful of people that actually want to follow my life. Well here it is.


School, I go to Mount Royal University and I love it there because of the small class size and the incredibly attractive women. It was awesome at first, taking control of my own life and handling all that responsibility on my own. I had five classes, dropped one instantly as it just didn't fit me at all. I dropped another one too, my English Fiction class that was taught by a demon of a woman. My GPA was getting murdered and I couldn't handle the reading load anymore. Then I started skipping class again, it started off because of girls but eventually it was something else. The Campus is so large, and you know what? It felt really empty even with the thousands of students with me, I ate all my meals by myself and spend all my time studying. Haha, but studying without someone staring over me is impossible. I haven't made a friend yet, how can I when the life of a University student is filled constantly? Maybe not mine, but others for sure. I'm going back to class tomorrow, but for how long? Can I actually do it? Its about 3 weeks until the last day of classes, and I'm feeling the heat now. I realize I can't get back all the marks I've missed. At least its only 3 classes, its been a learning experience.

Now for the chicks, I'm the guy who gets more than anyone most people and that hasn't really changed. What has changed is me, I'm really tired of it actually. I've only been in two long relationships, both which lasted only 3-4 years. Over the course of them I've pretty much ruined them by being overly promiscuous. I found that it is a lot harder now though to actually get further than a couple of months now. Over the past couple of months there have been 5 different women: Ally, Kaitlyn, Catherine, and 2 Teagans. Lasting respectively: 3 months, 1 night, 1 week, 3 months, and 1 day. When Ally and I broke up it was because we both wanted different things, she wanted what I now want. With Kaitlyn, it was a one night stand and is the main reason I don't go to English anymore. Catherine was a girl who liked me in my Psych class but I ended up not liking. Teagan D was a blonde model who I kept a relationship going purely based on shallow attraction, once that was done, I was done.

The last Teagan is the funny part. On top of being gorgeous I actually liked her a lot, and we went out once. It was great and we made followup plans, basically resulting in us back at my place for some fun. I ended up getting stood the fuck up, having a really shitty weekend where I also ended up getting fired because of her, and then I get basically ignored when I forgive her and try to make plans again. Fast forward about a month where I get pretty desperate to talk to someone (I'm stressing out like mad over exams) and I text her. One word reply, whatever not a big deal so I ask her to hang out. I get ignored again. I learned today essentially from one of her friends that she is depressive and slightly crazy. She likes to find ways to punish herself, like not seeing me again. Which I guess if you want to you can see it as she likes me, who cares really. She's also apparently slept with every guy friend she's ever had. I dodged a bullet. Hard.

That's basically a catch-up to what's relevant to my life as of now. I'll probably end up writing another major catch-up very soon, and actually return to class tomorrow. So for now, peace out.

Its been little under a month now since it began and the memory is starting to become a little hazy. But you know what? I told myself that I would begin blogging my life down again once I got to University and that's what I'm going to do. Its been a crazy summer leading up til' now, a lot of ups and downs trying to figure out what made me happy and what I could do about my ex-relationship. When school started I wasn't ready at all, I felt like I was in turmoil but the thing that I needed the most, was just to take the plunge.


I remember that morning and how the circumstances were laughable. I went to Tubbies the night before so I didn't sleep until about 2am (normal sleep schedule), I was upset because of some things that happened the night before, I didn't have anything for school (no supplies or books), and lastly my class was at 8am forcing me to get up at 5am. I felt like I was dying to be honest, but when I stepped into the school I felt really nervous and happy at the same time. Everything about that day, was memorable; from the ESP gifted professor to my first Japanese class, heck even my boring critical writing class. It was all a great experience.

Since then my outlook on everything started to dramatically change, I started to become a lot more happy and I became more ingrained with the people on campus. There was a rumor that I heard about MRU before I ever went there, and to me it was a bit absurd. I heard from multiple people that "Mount Royal has the biggest concentration of hot chicks in one place, every girl here is at least a 7 or higher." I was like, fuck off quit lying; but unless you go there you do not understand just how true it is. That's only part of it too, the girl to guy ratio is like 7:3 in general and like 9:1 in my psych class. For a guy like me that lives off of talking to people all the time, its really provided a boost in my class performance.

I finally started to pull away from my ex too, a positive thing in the long run I've been told but it doesn't make things any easier. If there was one thing that was sour in my life right now it would be that I don't really have anyone I can share all these experiences with, but that would be the only thing. I'm really seeking my independence and I feel like I might of finally found it. Everything is falling into place perfectly in my life and now that I don't have to worry about anything, I feel so much better. Welcome to the new me.

Hi, this is Chris and I'm an awesome dude from Canada, this is the beginning of my newest blog, My Extraordinary Life. If you're reading this you probably came from my old blog I started up a couple of years ago. The dropping of that site was previously intended, I told myself that My Ordinary Teenage Life would be replaced once I entered University. Here we are, my ambitions finally actuated and I have finally settled down into who I am.


About me, there is quite a bit to know but the main things that summarize me would be: 1. I experience great amounts of mood shifts, ranging from impossibly happy to terrifyingly sad, 2. I talk a whole lot, and my opinions are always valid and fun to read (and write!), and 3. I'm a Psychology major with a passion for writing. To be specific is to be vague and I in particular am very vague about who I am, a lot about me is told through my posts if you're attentive enough.

This blog is designed in a way that is to represent the workings of my own mind. Its organized and clean and I'll try to keep it that way; to help understand I'm going to explain it. There are 5 top stories in the obvious slideshow at the top of the page; the important thing to notice is that they are divided into certain sub-categories. I'm sure that I'll come up with me but in the meanwhile here they are: Life is a story about what has happened in my life, my goal is to craft it so it feels like you're there. Inner Thoughts is pretty obvious but just in case it is a post designed to illustrate the inner workings of my mind on a certain topic, this is usually pretty well thought out. Rant is clear, there is nothing else here other than me free-writing on a topic. Experience is a unique classification usually a thought out post that I write over a couple of days and documents something big, it will usually be mixed with something else. Muse and the Music is the last one and it directly pertains to the story I had written.

As I write this I figure that the biggest question I could ask myself is "why am I doing this?" The answer is that I love to write and I feel like that if I write it down it is like a bank of memories I can just reach into anytime I want. Due to that I think I'm going to start making titles more relevant. I never mean to do anything else with this blog other than write for myself, and share it with those who care.

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